♥ karEn ♥
the gal yOu hatE
the gal yOu lOve
♥ archleV3June 2005
* Sunday, October 30, 2005 *
My friend's happiness is minE~
althOugh she jUst free hersElf from onE bUt nOw she's bEing attacHed tO another one~
dOn't bE shOck if any of our clOse friends knOw it cOs well jUst nOw dinner was a bit of shOck ba~
bUt nOw i'm wondering sometimes is it a gOod thing that bOth this cOupel is Ur v.gOod.cLose friend~
oR is it a bad thing that thEy are a cOupel *u are alOne* and whEn thEy hOld hands walk tOgether,in thElr oWn wOrld while U're jUst walking bEside at the back or frOnt~
i've nO idea bUt i can bE sure that i'll nevEr gO out alOne with a cOupel cOs i hate thE feeling and well i gUess nOt tO be a big lampOst!
it'll only bE either mE & her, her & him or mE alone!!!
i'm sOri tO say i'm nOt implying anything bUt tO blog out how i feEl cos this feeling is once again back in mE again!
i really lOve hOlland village & thE Essential Brew Cafe
a thOusand aPologise that i really did nOt enjOy the dinnEr anD the time at the cafE!
tO be frank i've nv felt likE this beFore with i'm with my brOs & sis *was tOld tO change by F,changed again!*
bUt i just suddenly had this v.werid feeling...
feeling v.scared v.scared....
sOri tO say i've lost the interest in gOing genting nOw *perhaps only tmporary*
i feEl like vanishing frOm this wOrld...
anway lastly again,i've nv felt likE this before!!!
* Friday, October 28, 2005 *
read hUl's blog & decided to do this since sEc havE nOt beEn dOlng thiS,bRing bAck the paSt and prob summarised wad i've been thinkin, doin ... and all about me! arhh. juicy lil bits eh? =P
1.Name(gender): pEili (F)
2.Date of birth: 4th Sep *muST Note dOwn lEh*
4.Blood type: O+
6.Fave food: i eaT nOodle grOw uP lEhz
7.Hated food: garlic,oniOns ...
8.Fave artists: fOrever will bE Daniel Chan,JJ,Elva HsiaO,Cheer...
9.Fave genre:bOsanOva, pOp, r&b, sentlmEntal, jaZz *and the lIst gOes oN*
10.Hated artists: *eh cant think of it nOw leh*
11.Fave Karaoke song: Mei Li bEn nU rEn,bEl al dE nU rEn,KaO shU wO,dUl dE rEn *and the list gOes on fOrever wahaa*
13.First Kiss: whEn i was jUst bOrn wahaa~
14.Fave TV-show: eh nth i Watch what is nlcE
15.Fave flower : tulip / sUnflOwer / LavendEr / blUe rOse
16.First places I look for a person of another gender: tanned skin / nice halr / attltUde / nEatnEss
17.Fave hairstyle for a person of another gender: mUst see thEn know mah!!!
18.Eyesight: mine ar....alyO scary man,i wear glasses since prl sch lol~
19.Age i wanna get married at: eh nOt sO fast...
20.Fave scent: dEpend but now i liKE DKNY Green Apple!
21.fave fruit: watErmElone ba
22.Fave colors: white,black,blue,pUrple,grEen
23.Fave clothes: anything comfortable hurhUr!
24.Precious belongings: erm a lOt lEh!
25.most memorable movie: CharliE & the chOcolatE factOry,Willy Wonker!!!
26.best thing about me: hmmm....obsErvanCe HAA!
27.worst thing about me: laZy sometimes haa!
28.my attractive point: hUrhUr~i likE my eYes bUt nOt my paNda eyes~
29.complex : PA accounts~i can nv ever dReam of bEing an accountance hoRhOr
30.past time: talk,slp,eat,SING!!!
31.habit: BAD oR GoOD HABITS -__-''
32.things i wanna do to my loved one: make him stay by my side forever,wakaa~
33.things i wanna do with my loved one: haa~obviously romantic times by the beaCh listEning tO the waVes sOund hee!
34.have i confessed first?: cOnfessed what >.<
35.fave animals: CHAMELON wakaka~~~
36.hated animals: crOcodilEs,chlcKen erK >>>
37.things i'm wearing right now: nyp shirt + SurferParadise shOrts!
38.fave foreign actors/actresses: JACKIE CHAN *cOunted mah*,Sandra Bullock & of cos how can i miss oUt JOHNNY DEPP!!!
39.shampoo i'm currently using: eh always changed leh~
40.when did i feel worst: qUarrEll with friends i really carED fOr!!!
41.impressions after looking at myself in the mirror: F.A.T / U.G.L.Y yUks~
42.what i feel about how i look: i feEl W.O.R.S.T.
43.how did i get to know my best friend: same class in sEc sch lol!
44.things i always carry with me: HP,$$,COMB,MIRRIOR hee~
45.phonebill last month?: haa~leSs than $50 *grinz*
46.my maximum alcohol allowance: dePend what i drInk and of cOs till i drOp dEad thEn u'll knOw haha > > >
47.things i'm bound to do when i'm drunk: haa~i'm prO cOs havEn gOt drUnk bEfore & i cant imaglnE what will i dO when i'm really drUnk *wanan tRy* haa~
48.have i left home without permission?: haa~of cOs!
49.what do i wanna say to my parents?: I LOVE THEM & of cOs faster makE enoUght $ and live outsldE alOne >.<"
50.dream of conception: my drEams,travElling rOund thE wOrld!
51.my personality: u can hatE me,u can lOve mE.i dUn care!!!
52.longest time i've waited for an appointment: fOrget liao lEh!
53.do you keep promises well?: hOpefUlly yesh *cOs i dun like tO make empty promlse & i dUn make prOmise easily* damN hate ppl whO dun keEp thElr prOmise sO make any prOmise tO me whEn u cant keEp DAMN ASS!!!
54.usual rendez-vous place with closest friend: HAA~depend which friends i'm with cOs all deifferent lOcation leh hee mOstly is tOwn!!!
55.time to bed: if next day gOt something oN,then i'll bE gUai and slp early the night b4!
56.when do i hate my parents the most?: QuarrEll
57.how do i express happiness? haa~ "Sa siao" grinz happily walalala > > >
58.how many times have you received flowers from a girl/boy?: hm~want mE tO list oUt nO worrles lEss than 10 fingers >>>sEng>gaRy>hOngda>ElizabEth>ryan *a fake flower bUt the thOughs cOunt*>wElyan>yOng>kaijing = 8 times sO fEw hOr!!!
59.how many boy/girl friends have you had?: 3bf and a dOzen gf espEcially KJ whO is my fav almOng all *ops*
60.where do i go first when meeting a boy/girl?: erhm,tOilet
61.fave character: WINNIE THE POOH
62. family relationship : EXCELLENT
63. when your loved one is angry: eh dEpend on suitation mah
64.what if your loved one breaks up with you: talk > rEasOn > accePt
65.what if your loved one asks for a kiss: play hard to get!!!
66.what if your loved one has left....: left sg? persuade if he suddenly leave this world, i'll prob cry myself to death. *sighs*
67.things to do after this: S-T-U-D-Y,last papEr cOmlng uP!!!
68.things near me: hp and pC mOnitor rIght infront of mE lol
69.things on my bed: pillow / bolstr / blAnker / winnie the pOoh
70.memorable CF: wads a CF? cardiac failure ar wahaa~*nUrsing tErm*
71.memorable soapies: huh
72.my first impression by other people: blAck facE / arrogaNt / haRD tO please
73.people say i look like this celebrity: sO sad my pOly friends say my smilE lOoks likE erhm EsOn Chen >..<
74.fave sport: badmintOn ba~
75.current hairstyle: nOt shOrt nOt lOng,its call mEssy
76.fave season: spring or autumn. havent got the chance to experience other seasons leh.
77.things in my bag: wallet,hp,fountation,camEra etc etc etc
78.in my bank account: $0.0079.when do i think i'm stingy: hm....
80. hated fren: oh yEsh sOmeone in pOly~a pIg man!!!
81.things i worry about these days: my exam resUlt
82.common dreams these days:drEams~agresslOn,bUrns,schnizoprenia,fractUre,
dementia,TNPR,Milieu therapy,vendilation,shOck,pOsion,cardIac arrest,cancer,chemo therapy etc etc all my dreams these few days are all thise tOpcls arGgggggg *signz*
83.things i wanna get: CLOTHES ~ SHOES ~ MONEY ~ or BF oso can...
84.places i wanna go: TAIWAN < HONG KONG > AUSTRALIA < KOREAN < JAPAN > HOKKADIO
85.ideal guy: can i have both dream boy and soul mate?
86.example of my ideal guy/girl: Lousi kOo or dUncan alsO can haa~i'm drEamlng!
87.cute or stuck-up guy?: cute
88.tough or cute guy?: CuTE
89.celebrity i wanna look like: HM~elva or pEnny alsO can!!!
90.how do u get close to your loved one?: -_-''
91.how do u tell your loved one how you feel?: talk lor. open heart n pour everythg OUT! everythg!!! but will end up fighting. and quarelling. so dun try too often.
92.thin, slim girl or a chubby girl?: SLIM
93.thin, feeble-looking guy or chubby guy?: erh~feeble-loOkinghaa~
94.initials of the person you love: arh~nO idea leh
95.what do i usually eat outside?: anything buT not fast-fOod!
96.ice-cream flavour in Baskin Robbins: mint,peppermint
98.what do u think of the person you got this from??: haaa~xlaOhui
99.things u wanna say to that person?: haa~i LOVE uUUU HAA~
100.after 100q's&100a's: sO tired man!!!
* Wednesday, October 26, 2005 *
Part 4 -Ways to bE HAPPY!!!
51) Now is the time to empty your childhood piggy back & buy yourself a special gift.
52) If you have troubles falling asleep, spray a little lavender cologne on your pillow. It will help you to fall fast asleep.
53) Try to brighten up even the tiniest corners of your world. Place helpful quotes on pot holders, in a briefcase, and even on your steering wheel.
54) Carry your loves ones… picture in your wallets, so that you can look at them often when you feel alone.
55) The best cure for worry, depression, melancholy, brooding is to go deliberately forth and try to lift with one…s sympathy the gloom of somebody else.
56) Ask yourself what your hopes for the future are.
57) Learn to accept your shortcomings
58) What you cant change, accept.
59) Know that a trouble shared is a trouble split in half.
60) Using a stethoscope, listen to how strongly your heart beats even when its broken.
61) Believe that God has plan for your life.
62) Wear a pretty bed jacket to bed to keep yourself warm on nights when you feel a little bit lonely.
63) Good, to forgive; Best, to forget!
64) Have a crush on someone? Ask that person out for a date.
65) Begin writing a new chapter in your life.
66) Every night make planes for the next day, to e sure that you stay nice & busy
67) It isn…t the load that weighs you down, it…s the way you carry it.
68) I had no shoes and complained until I met a man who had no feet.
69) Give yourself the birthday gift that you have been wanting for a very long time.
70) Try to be happy about other…s good fortune.
* Thursday, October 20, 2005 *
<<<<<<<< HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY Elaine >>>>>>>>
althOugh u are not in spore now,still wanna hOpe U enjOy ur 22nd bday ok!!!
>>>>>>>> HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY JASON <<<<<<<<
starting jOurney of 21s,may it bE a smOoth one ahead!talthough u'll spEnd it in ur aRmy but anyway still hOpe u enjOy ur day!!!
)))))))) HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY KENNETH ((((((((
haa~welcOme tO the new clUb of 21st presldEnt kEnneth.dUn keep saying U are still yOung liao hor >.< U are nOt!!!enjOy ur day!!!
* Tuesday, October 18, 2005 *
yEah sO happy...
got David Tao tic liao...
$140 heart ache
and yEah finally Musicforest having out 1st out of spore outing hee~
*i must be mad,bUt whO cares*
each and everyone of us are sOooo looking forward tO the trlp hee~
although the trlp is tO genting organised by Partyworld...
but at least we know it will bE fUn & exciting hee~
Dec 2,3,4 - wE are cOmlng haa!!!
* Sunday, October 16, 2005 *
back with mOre posting on a wOnderfUl weEkEnd
Sat was @ Orchard PartywOrld tO celebrate PJ & Francls bday...
fianlly 1 was 20th & the other 25th haa~
its was a mOre gals than gUys bday party~
it was alsO a wonderfUl cakE thrOwing day especially for Francls~
tUne in tO the plc bElow :rOund fOr PJ >.< sQuare for franlcs
makE a wlsh tOgether
cUt cakE cUt cakE
Charlie's AngEls hee~
dUe tO the lagging of blogger...
i guess the rest of the plc have tO be seen in my webshots6...
at night,we went tO marina sOuth for dinner...
sweaty & hOt but fUn...
bOwling was next...
heihei,wE wOn sO the lOser : HJ,kEl,Shulin have tO treat uS drink hee~
a v.wonderful & unforgettable day ^_^
tOday ran 3 birthday parties...
1st is delton *jasOn's they all army guys friend*
2nd is Kenneth
3rd is QingXiang
i mUst have beEn prO having 3 parties same day almost 2 same time...
heihei,taken @ the hOuse below
* Friday, October 14, 2005 *
<<< HAPPY 20TH Birthday PinJi >>> -- enjOy ur day tOday ok!!!
i'm someone who treasure friendshlPs a lot...
every friends i've meet who have hit well with me,i'll really really treasure...
even my ex says that i treasure friendshlp more than a r/s...
i'm a sensitive & observate person...
a little action or meeting my new friends etc,i'll consider my friend's feelings...
every little things i dO,my friend's feeling will bE 1st...
trying nOt tO neglect he/shE when i'm with my friends...
till nOw whEn ever i drOp my tears,it will bE either r/s,sch result,stress & lastly friendshlp...
but sometimes i dUnno why...
why am i treated likE this...
i dun mind small jOkes/prank but i'll get angRy if it gets bIg...
and 1 thing i hate mOst is when u get angry and ppl still continue tO say U what's more its ur gOod friends *can u guys take it,i dOubt sO*!!!
i may pintch,hit my friends sometimes cos i know they are really my gOods friends and i know they'll not get angry!!!
lastly,i swear i'll never ever take a plcture with 3 persons in it!!!
i try tO take tat thinking off and find its allright to take a plc with only 3 person but then i guess not now anymore!!!
u can say i'm tOo superstious or what ever...
i dun care...
u may not believe but i believe since sec sch and now!!!
* Monday, October 10, 2005 *
Part 3 -Ways to bE HAPPY
31) Find a four-leaf clover for luck
32) Write to Santa & tell him how you would like your life to be next year at this time.
33) Open your windows and let some fresh air into your home
34)Spend one whole day being lazy
35) Tune in to your favorite television drama & be glad that you don…t have that trouble to contend with in your life.
36) Dress up to stay at home
37) Climb a tree. You…ll feel like a child again.
38) Give thanks for every single one of your blessings
39) Go sailing and feel the wind in your face, blowing your troubles right out of your head.
40) Experience is not what happened to you, it is what you do with what happened to you.
41) Tell yourself that it is good to get on with your life. Give up your feeling of guilt.
42) Give yourself someone to love.
43) Force yourself to greet each day with a smile
44) Know when to say yes, when to say no.
45) Surround yourself with beautiful things.
46) To relieve stress, try biofeedback.
47) Understand that one of the great keys to a happy life is balance.
48) When you are ready to make changes, be sure that you are making positive ones.
49) Keep in mind that no one can make you happy except you.
50) This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognize by yourself as a mighty one.
* Saturday, October 08, 2005 *
well i'm back with my uPcomings...
was out tO shentOn way partywOrld on wed & fri tO support my 2 MF idOls haa~
Xiu was PJ's friend
HJ & Xiu did nOt gOt intO the finals tOo bad...
bUt Francls got another chance tOnight...
hOpefUlly there will bE sOme gOod news cOMing from him *Praying*
bUt i gUess nO matter what the rEsults are,we'll always bE there tO support U guys...
and of cOs we are plannlng a trlp uP tO Genting with PartyWorld cOs of special prices hee~
oh ya and YEAH...
DAVID TAO IS COMING SPORE FOR HIS "LOVE CAN WORLD TOUR 2005"
oCt a lot of 21st babies...
rUnning searching around like mad for bday presents...
+ the tic + the genting trip...
oh gOd i'm brOke...
i'm really brOke...
anyone care tO spare mE sOMe caSh...
* Tuesday, October 04, 2005 *
it strike me that from birth till now...
that i've tO always do things dOuble than any other pEople...
cOs i'm damn slOw...
i'm always the last,the wEakest,thE mOst lOusy amOng my friEnd...
examplE stUdy,my PSLE till mY 'O's then nOw till pOly...
i'm always thE tOp fEw cOunting from the back...
anD really i'vE nO confidEnt in graduating my yr 3!
nExt singing in MF...
i alsO cant gradUate in that...
sometimes i jUst poNdER WHat kind of person am i or what catergory do i bElong tO...
whY i jUst always cant dO things wEll...
eVen i've my dReams,
i still nEeD To work dOuble tO fullfill it!
sometimes i really felt sO useless...
i dUn blame my parents or anyone...
i blame mysElf!!!
p/s:friends out there reading my blog,i'll appreciated it if u guys dun call,sms or ask me anything.
i'll be fine in a while...
i jUst wanted tO stay quiet this way...
my blog is the place where i'll always vent my anger on!!!
* Monday, October 03, 2005 *
16) Want to look and feel better? Go on a diet to lose any excess weight.
17) Be strong, be brave, and take control of your life.
18) When times get really hard, learn to live moment to moment.
19) Spend 15 min a day learning a foreign language you…ve always wanted to speak.
20) Even if you don…t like it, put on a big smile. It takes fewer muscles to smile
than to frown!
21) When you get to the end of your rope, make a knot and hang on.
22) Order a gift for yourself from a mail-order catalog & Look forward to its arrival
23) Try to view your life as one big adventure.
24) Learn to laugh at yourself.
25) Attend a fashion show & pick out a fabulous new outfit.
26) Cry on ur dad or mum…s shoulder
27) Call a long-lost friend. Old friends are often the best friends.
28) Make definite plans for your immediate future.
29) Rearrange your furniture to create a fresh home environment.
30) Look for the angles among us.
* Sunday, October 02, 2005 *
was oUt almost 1/2 a day singing with my sEc sch friends...
cOs ZX was gOing arMy soOn mah,sO cOMe lets gather!
p/s:plc uPload in my webshots 4
really enjOy singing wlTh u guys hee~
hopefUlly next oUting is plannlng sOOn...
*almOst forgot about our ladies night right*
i'm obessed with another HK actOr nOw...
actually i've know about hlm,find hlm gd-lOoklng...
bUt whEn anNe was tOklng about him...
oh nO,i really find he's really gd-looking...
same as lOuis hee~
he's nOne others than "Duncan"
*and well i gUess HK gUys are really gd-lOOklng,hee*
haa~i gUess gals likE us gOlng mAd sOon...
sO hee~i've link both of thEm tO under my links...
anyone can gO take a lOok hOohOoo!!!
p/s: anNe dUn drOol lEh hee~
* Saturday, October 01, 2005 *
215 Ways to Cheer Yourself
i'll gOlng to post 1st 15 uP here then subsequently pOst the rest uP...
hOpe its really dOes hElp cos from the 2002 of it,i chOse the one which is pOssible in dOlng haa~enjOy!!!
1)Throw a party that people will be talking about for years
2)Count up all the miracles that have taken place in your life so far. Know that there will be even more to come.
3)Take a chance and get involved again in life.
4)Sing your blues in the shower and let the water wash ur trouble away *at least for a few relaxing min*
5)Learn to enjoy being by yourself, so that u will never feel lonely again.
6)Focus your attention on the good things in your life and not on the bad things.
7)Go snorkeling to get a different perspective on the world.
8)When it snows, make a snow angle to remind urself of the guardian angel who is always looking after u.
9)Sing your favorite hymn & concentrate on the deep, spiritual meaning of the song.What does it mean to u? How does it relate to your life?
10)Buy a parrot and teach it to say happy words & phrases.
11)Cleaning is one of the best therapies, so clean out your closet and give your old clothes to charity.Yesh, giving is also one of the best therapies!
12)The only way to avoid being miserable is not to have enough leisure to wonder whether you are happy or not.
13)Turn on the radio or television for a little companionship when you are by urself and feeling sad.
14)Reread the best love letters you have ever received.
15)For a daring change, dye your hair red.