the night before~ i almost need a psychatrist ~ i never feel sO depressed before~ breaking down is already worst liao~ i've a tough week~ yesh it tough & unlucky~ everything crash down on me at once~ i had a fall twice this week~ worst is i'm in my uniform when i fall~ damn embarassed! 1st day of wOrk~ i'm being kiCk by pt in my abd,damn~ then 2nd day of work~ i'm already taking 2 cases~ 2nd day when i have not even know anything~ so continue day 3 - 3 cases... day 4 - 4 cases... *different cases falling down on me~ didn't even have any break~ even dinner was just snacks and off we go~ now i understand how tough is to be a nurse!* plus my 3055 exam~ not yet really read into it~ sO i was super stress~ hopefully in the next 2 weeks~ everything goes off smoothly~ cos i still can sense some stress coming up for me~ April has not been a good month for me!!!
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today is really nOt my day~ tOday driving iS the wOrst of thE wOrst~ i cant believe it~ i got into accidEnt ~ althOUgh its just a mild scratch on the 'L' plate & the car bEhind Number plate~ bUt~~~ i was hUrt~ hUrt in my hEart~ wOndering wHy its likE thls~ at that time i was sO dePressed~ pOndering why why why~ but my instrutor cheEr mE!!! that's not all~ i even drag my instrutoR dOwn~ he was nOt ablE tO get his bOnus~ if there's accldEnt happEned~ i feEl rEal bad~ ''YONG PEILI,WHAT ARE U DOING'' feEl like slapping mysElf uP~ halz~~~ dEpreSsed~~~~~~~~~~~~
last day of sch~ try nOt tO think sO much abOut anything nOw~ enjOy my ktv sesslOn~ << Plc fOr thE day >> that's flOn~ my lEs parther,hee~ 'JJ Party' cOming sUnday~ halz bUt i've tO sacrifice JJ June concert liao~ cOs of my tigHt bUget~ Next Monday officially start my PRCP attachment~ *PRCP - Pre-registration consolidated placement* an attachment to prepare uS,graduated tO becOme a Staff Nurse! 6 weEks at Alexandra Hospital~ *cOme visit mE if u are frEE haa* i'll bE mad cOs over there~ everything i'vE tO 'bao ka liao'~ yEsh its everything! hopefUlly everything gOes wEll!
suddenly my heart beat v.fast~ pulse rate increase~ respiration rate increase~ cOs i'm panicking for the 3rd TP~ 3 weeks more to go in May~ will bE on a Friday morning this time~ tat's the reason why~ cOs its a FRIDAY MORNING~ traffic will bE heavy~ halz!!! i'm still sad~ i've been keeping to mysElf these few days~ trying harD to supress my feelings~ but its just harD~ whenever i'm alOne~ i'll keEp thinking y i did so badly tat day~ why why why????????????? halz~everything is ovEr!!! ~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! jUst finish watching 'FULL HOUSE' ~ acted by Song Hui Qiao & Rain~ its thE 1st kOrean shOw that i ever watCh~ Song Hui Qiao v.cUte~ Rain v.handsOme~ enDlng is the bEst part i likE! thankz for lending mE the vcD kEnnEth!!!
If that mOtorcyclist never daSh oUt~ ~~~i might nOt fail If i've never strike kErb~ ~~~i might not fail If i've never strike pOle dOwn~ ~~~i might not fail bUt in the eNd, takE away thE "IF" ~ i still fail~ sUch a gOod tester fOr mE~ bUt blame my lUck this time~ oppOsite this time, i did badly in circuit! i've nO idea whY i did badly! blamE thE car~ blamE my health~ blamE the weather~ NO,i blamE mysElf even mOre! sUddenly mY wOrld becOme dim~ i cant seE anything clearly~ is there anyOne whO can hElp me tO light uP?
cOughing likE maD~ cOughing likE hEll~ cOugh till my lUngs gOtten jUmp oUt! Part 9 -Ways to Be Happy 171) When you give, give from the heart. 172) Forgive anyone who has done you wrong, no matter how big the wrong. In fact, the larger the wrong, the more you need to forgive. 173) Man, like the bridge, was designed to carry the load of the moment, not the combined weight of a year at once. 174) Plan to do something great and bold with your life. 175) Do what you want to do. it is that simple! 176) Accept your life with all troubles as your own. 177) Remember your happiest moments in life. 178) Look at the universe through a telescope for a moving experience. 179) Yes, we do have a sixth sense & it is the one to pay the most attention to at this particular point in your life. 180) Find something in your life to be enthusiastic about.
oh nO~ my immune system is dOwn sOon~ my face was fLush~ my thrOat was sOar~ i'm feEling terriblE! i want tO rest~ bUt i cant! halz! today driving was fUn~ nO more tat scared or panic~ but at least re-wind back tO last sat~ those test route etc~ my instrutor was cOrrect~ driving shOuld be lively & not dead~ ya~more confidEnce now for my 2nd TP! gracE ar gracE~ although i've tOld u liao in msn but i still wanna rEpeat mysElf~ sOmetimes its not a bad thing tO turn back & sEe what mistake u've make~ sO u'll learn from it~ anD not repeat it again! example mE lor,tolD u liao~ i'll always think twicE before making declslOns~ anD always imagine thE wOrst~ *and sometimes its cOme truE leh,damn* haa~ aftEr all nOw,u jUst neEd tO work harD & dUn be in a fly away mOod hor!!!
lalala~ 'i think i' love you... lalala~ cos i mlss you... lalaaa~ 'i'm falling for you'... llaala~ now i nEed you... i simply lOve this sOng~ anD the MV of the mOvie seEms nice tOo haa! allright~ppl no worries i've take it easy liao~ part & parcel of life in my path~ just prepare wEll for the 2nd time can liao ^_^!!!
everyone is in the right~ and i'm in the wrong~ why is it always like tat? allright,today qUery & answer given is not statisfy! since there's ppl complaining before~ why was actlOn not dOne~ thEn its always the stUdent whO suffered! i'll nv ever forget ~this day ~this time ~this tester & ~this route ~1st April ~10am ~Ong ~Test Route 8 allright and i've boOk my 2nd TP~ 1 more week tO go~ will be next Sat same time,same saturday~ will it be sO suEy as to be the same tester & rOute haa~ then i shall bUy 4D liao if it really happEnded! this timE really mUst be kaisU a bit~ will bE going 'bai bai' with Shuli for 2 times haa!!!
gUess a lot of ppl are waiting fOr my blOg huh since ytd~ WELL its APRIL FOOL yeaterday~ but i'm not being fool by the instrutor~ or sld i say i'm being fOol by the instrutor~ damn~ allright~ I FAIL MY TP~ i gOt 26 points on rOad & zerO in circUit~ tat's all i can say~ reASons~ i know sometimes tester will change rOute but now the tester tOok me tO another rOute which is actually not the test rOute of my actual test route that i've chOose~ *sUch a big difference by changing whole test rOute* anD what's mOre i've never ever beEn travel tO tat rOute he tOok me ytd. sO i was likE what the hell~whY hE tOok me here~ the rOad is like f***! after everything finish~ he still can say he's cOrrect~ he fOllow the test rOute~ what the f*!!! what's more u want me tO say when everything has finished~ argUing back with U sO many times alsO nO useD! cOs my tEars is drlpping right infront of U liao! since dUnno how long have i ever cried sO hard~ and i heard somethin