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2 018, you taught me so much. It was chock full of lessons and a year full of breakthroughs. R emember, forget,  forgive,  bring those memories back to life As 2018 comes to an end.... I hope you leave behind the doubts, the lack of confidence and negative voice in your head.... I hope you leave behind the guilt you feel for choosing that you want even if it doesn't align with other's wishes.... I hope you leave behind the hates that resides in your heart... I hope you leave behind the things that don't make you happy.... I hope you stop counting all the mistakes and start counting your accomplishments... I hope you stop thinking about the toxic people in your life... I hope you stop torturing yourself with thoughts of reactivities... I hope you learn to accept things that are no longer in your life for a reason... I hope you learn to accept your past and move on from it instead of keep turning back making yourself tear... I hope

Salam! سلام The confusion existed due the lack of a clear boundary – geographically, geopolitical, socio-culturally, economically or historically – between South Asia and other parts of Asia, especially the Middle East and Southeast Asia. Therefore Pakistan falls under the South Asia constituent country and it is my 1st South Asia visit. Thank god for my friend who has been backpacking there for years hence I decided to visit her and the country that she has been raving about - Pakistan! Travelling in Pakistan is a truly unique experience one can never forget, it can be frustrating, enlightening and eye opening but more often than not, surprising!!! To the country of unexpected events when you cant plan much but to follow the mother nature. From the endless land slide, to rocks falling, the heart fainted road track in the mountain and time consuming at every police check point to new local friends and lastly the paradise where you want to spend ages but you realise

She has a million reasons to give up — on love, on her career, on herself   but she keeps going. She keeps hoping. She keeps believing that things  are going to get better. She’s been through hell and back, but you would never know that by looking  at her. She wears a wide smile. She talks with enthusiasm. She acts like the  world is a beautiful place, like she’s never gotten chewed up and spit out by  boys that looked her in the eyes and lied about loving her.               But she has been hurt. She has been lied to. Led on. Cheated on. Ghosted. Abandoned.         But it doesn’t matter how many boys she had to erase from her contact list, how many   relationships she got excited over and then disappointed by. All of her exes combined aren’t enough to convince her to give up hope. They’re not going to trick her into believing that she’s unlovable. She knows what she deserves, she knows that it’s out there, and she knows that she’s going to find it

This is simply one of my best trip of all! Pakistan, you really make my heart jump and fall for you! Will be back blogging after I sort out the photos!

To the Land of Pure! It's gotten be excited! It's gotten be adventurous I gotten be brave I (Lung) gotten be strong =)

Maybe it was me? Maybe it was you? Maybe I didn't give too much, you gave too little. Maybe I thought if I gave more it would make up for what you’re not.  Maybe you’re closed off, and can’t accept this kind of affection,  because you’re still healing from a past love.  I won’t do that. So maybe it was me.  Maybe it was you.  Maybe it was just a cactus that got a little too much water

It is not the rock ahead you climb that wear you out. It's the fear in you! Trying to conquer my fear of wanting to climb this 6B route in a top rope way! But still having the fear of swinging outwards when I fall. Disappointed with myself, with my mood that day and with everything that falls ~

Forgive yourself first. Release the need to replay a negative situation over and over  again in your mind. Don't become a hostage to your past by always reviewing  and reliving your mistakes. Don't remind yourself of what should have, could have  or would have been Release it and let it go. Move on!

This is the month that I had the most celebrations and cakes! Each and every one of your bday surprise puts a smile on my face. This year by far is the best year of celebrations. All your presence are deeply appreciated down in my heart!  Well, they say make it a september to remember ~ Deeply grateful to all the wonderful celebrations in this month~ Be thankful for my life, Spend thing in nature (climb), Breathe deeply, Let go of your worries, forgive yourself & others. Something for myself: 3+4岁的妳走到这。 妳所做错的事，我原谅妳。 妳过去不开心的事，我现在要妳开心的笑。 妳所完成的事，我替妳开心。 妳还未完成的事，我会继续替妳完成。 谢谢妳经历过去的人事物。 谢谢那些离她而去的人。 谢谢该在的人还在。 我会带着妳的经历， 学习做个更好的人。 还是那一句 ; 今天的妳笑了吗? p/s: this pic is one of my fav picture from one of my friend cum colleague  that I treasure much because they say you cant have OR you cant find good friends  out while at work and yes I tear when I receive this blessing from her....

"Everglow"   Oh they say people come Say people go This particular diamond was extra special And though you might be gone And the world may not know Still I see you celestial But when I'm cold, cold When I'm cold, cold There's a light that you give me When I'm in shadow There's a feeling within me, an everglow Like brothers in blood Sisters who ride And we swore on that night We'd be friends 'til we died But the changing of winds And the way waters flow Life as short as the falling of snow And now I'm gonna miss you, I know But when I'm cold, cold When I'm cold, cold There's a light that you give me When I'm in shadow There's a feeling within me, an everglow Like a lion you ran A goddess you rolled Like an eagle you circled In perfect purple So how come things move on How come cars don't slow When it feels like the end of my world? When I should but I can'